The last few months I have been having anxiety experiences. (Sometimes saying to myself: "If this got worse I might have to get one of those jackets with the really long sleeves.")
Then comes one of those times when my mind is clear. Where did all that anxiety come from? (I think) I look behind the curtain and see myself at the TRYING TO CONTROL LIFE PANEL. The truth is so easy and so painful. I want to be God. I want to be in CONTROL. I made a list the other day of the things in my life that give me anxiety. I stopped counting when I listed the eighth major area.
I'm stuck at the end of Chapter 6 of Matthew. Have you ever noticed how easy it is to read the New Testament and how hard it is to live it?
Easy to read...
ReplyDeleteHard to live....
Here in is the lesson.
We can't
he can
We quit
He starts
We follow
He leads
Dying is never an enjoyable experience.
ReplyDeleteI don't mind getting to the other side, but the process of dying to one's self is long, hard, and painful.
Jesus spoke and said "Come and follow me." I don't think anyone had any idea what the following would entail. Come with me and you will have to die over and over again. You will be fishers of men, but they bite mind you.
Controling one's life is a self-inflicting delusion. We will never be in control. The more we try to hold onto the wheel, the more out of control life becomes. Free will is a dangerous thing. It's like giving Toonces the Cat the steering wheel.
I too tend to think I have some control. HA!
ReplyDeleteHow awesome that you posted!
Look who's talking.
ReplyDeleteJim's back!
ReplyDeletePrayin' for you, man.
MB, that was a great response.
ReplyDeleteJim, glad to see you posting. Thank you for your honesty.
Jim,so glad your posting,and Thanks for being ,so you.You are the most humble man to God's will.You have a spirit that is so intune to The needs of God's people, so take it go on forward.Thank you again my brother for doing God's will.
ReplyDeleteHEY! I went 6 days...not 2 months!
ReplyDelete*sigh* Oh to keep up with the demands of my fans.*grin*
What bugs me is knowing and being grateful that I have been delivered from my former "control freak" life, but then that pride thing starts creeping in & (like I had anything to do with it!)I realize that things I was convinced I was rid of controlling, I'm back to trying to lead God, again, instead of following. (Okay, breathe, Faye-sentences, not paragraphs!) Anyway, thanks, Jim and the rest of you for sharing.
ReplyDeleteJim
ReplyDeleteWelcome back to blogville. I've missed you! Control...what a nasty word. God's in control whether we think WE are or not! Please continue to stay in touch...we kinda depend on each other between Sundays.